I have found that in these last couple of months my prayers are often quick and desperate. "Lord, please let Evie sleep!!" "Father, help me not lose my cool." "forgive me, forgive me , please forgive me."
These are the prayers that pass through my mind and lips like a broken record. With two small kids I barely have the time or brain capacity to create coherent thoughts. If it sounds like I'm exaggerating, trust me, I am not. I had to rescue a hot wheels car from a poopy toilet in the middle of writing this.
So, in these weeks of desperation I have turned to the Psalms. I need prayers and it seems that the words I need are there. Today, Psalm 94 gave me inspiration for this prayer.
O LORD-
You created me - my ears that hear the crying, demands, and laughing of little ones. I know You hear me.
You gave me eyes that see the tantrums, messes, and smiles of my babies. I know You see me.
You made discipline- and are training me to discipline those in my care with unending love, mercy and justice, just as You do.
You know how fleeting my life is, yet You choose to teach me Your ways.
I am blessed because of Your discipline, because of your Word.
You see my bad days and provide rest.
Thank You Father. Amen.
When the days are too much turn to the Lord, when the days are just right, praise Him!
Love, Emily
